#doodle to unwind
I just want to leave this place I’m about to be 21 and my curfew is at either 11 or 12 depending on my parents mood like that’s absurd, they don’t even want me to drink alcohol for my 21st birthday. I just want some independence I pay my own bills, I even help pay for some of theirs and yet I’m worthless as they like to say. Ugh I hope I have enough to get out of here by next summer or even earlier.
My dog recently had 4 puppies and I fell in love with one that looks just like Duke who I’ve had for 11 years and we just grew really attached to each other, I told my mom that I was going to take her when I moved out but she ignored me and said that I never take care of the dogs. Well I guess paying for their vet bills, shots, treats, toys, playing with them, and taking them out for walks wasn’t enough. So tonight she tells me that a former co-worker of hers is coming to see the puppies because she wants one since hers ran away, I told her there’s a reason her dog ran away she’s a horrible woman and why are you doing her a favor by giving her one if you hate her? She stole your tips, favored the others over you and you’re still being friendly towards her!? My mom just told me to shut up. So the lady came over tonight looked at the puppies and took my favorite I didn’t even get to say good-bye. It was a horrible night like I already feel depressed, anxious and suicidal like the things thing other than my puppy being sold tonight just make me feel so alone.